Balanced

I think I’m finally free from your emotional clutches. Free down to the last inch. I’ve lost track of time. I don’t remember how many years that I have spent on an emotional-relationship sabbatical. I was finally treated and shown how anyone deserves to be treated in a relationship. I finally experienced a few months back what a non-dysfunctional feels like. I’m sorry for the pain and hurt I have unfairly caused others. I’ve have just experienced my first crush since I let go of every last trace of you. It did not pan out, but I learned with a nugget of joy that I have the ability to love again. The ability that I thought you took away on the day you walked out the door. You never did. It was just buried deep within me. And now it sits in the sun. I’ve finally stopped loathing myself and started loving myself as much as I should.

Cher + Me

Blast from the Past

Was at a gathering of some former collegemates last night when I ran into a few other former collegemates having their own gathering at the same place. In that crowd was a really hot girl who I used to have a serious crush on. She heard from a friend about my crush and expressed interest. But I backed away bcos I was too chicken shit. I kept thinking I wasn’t good enough for her, she’s too hot, bla bla bla… self-esteem issues that I have still to this very day. Now she’s a gorgeous mother of two, and I’m left wondering what could have been.

Within 2 seconds, I knew the answer to the question “what could have been”. Nothing. I know I would end up bailing on her, just like I bailed on most of the women I’ve dated or been in a serious relationship with. My fren is rite. He thks I always make up some lame-ass excuse or find some minor flaw in a woman before I feel “safe” enough to enter into a rshp becos if shit hits that fan, I will always use that “flaw” as a passport to bail. I never realize that I was doing that becos it was never done intentionally. It’s a sub-conscious thing and it hit me like a fucking ton of bricks when my fren pointed it out to me.

I’m only 26, but sometimes, I feel that the world has already passed me by and left me behind a long time ago…

她耳中的废话

放手，不是我想要的。选择，不是我有的。剩下的，只有悲伤，空虚，寂寞。我很想你，想念你的笑，你的可爱，你的味道，你的摆动。。。 我很怕做错决定。。。我还是很爱你，但我不能回头。。。

The Hypocracy of Our "Democracy"

This one goes out to all of my Muslim brothers and sisters who have every been harassed, raped, beaten, threatened and humiliated by those nosy and self-righteous motherfuckers from those Muslim authorities who snoop into hotel rooms or pubs for khalwat-stopping exercises. Where were those cunts when the following took place:









Hardly surprising those so-called "muslim" enforcement officers are never there when it comes to catching out on of our finer ministers, such as Datuk Seri Nazri Aziz in the pictures above. But when it comes to sexually molest, verbally degrading, raping and taking nude photos of the women that they detain, then these fucking hypocrites like those of any other religion are right on the job.

These ministers are also the ones who keep tellign us to treasure muslim values, etc. But look at the pics. How very muslim of them. Oh yeah, that's not his wife btw, in case some of u are still dumb enough to thk that it is. I believe also that we shud request for special fund for our esteemed ministers. They seem to have contracted gluccoma cos when ask about the pics, dear Nazri said that the guy in the pic is not him. Hmmm.... Not sure about his eyesight so u be the judge....

QT and GR

Never really a big fan of really popular directors like Steven Spielberg, George Lucas or Peter Jackson. I'm more a fan of the works of more "mid-range" directors who are not exactly unknown or indie, but a bit more obscure than their flashier counterparts. Luv the works of Quentin Tarrantino and Guy Ritchie. I seriously recommend anyone at all to watch QT's Pulp Fiction and GR's Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and Snatch. Below is a clip of a Nike football commercial directed by GR. Pretty cerative and captures quite accuratly life from the point of view of a rising football star. Enjoy.

Clear Thinker

The same goes to all those other religions who believe themselves to be superior to others.